Mom has moved back to Colorado and is living with a friend of hers. I guess she's going back to school and trying to find a job now. Tanner apparently is moving in with Mom and her friend because he's having a hard time being away from family. It's been about 10 weeks since I have spoken to or seen my Mom because of the choices she has made. My dad is still living with my wonderful Aunt and traveling back and forth, staying with me at my apartment when he's here. Mom and Dad talk every once in a while, just about Tanner and divorce stuff. I really don't know when the divorce is going to be final, but then again, I don't ask.
My Mom seems to think that all Christians that don't agree with what she's doing are hypocritical and we just don't know how to forgive. "DAMNIT, She deserves to be HAPPY!" Those of course are her words. Well, I've been a Christian for a long time, and I don't know anywhere in the Bible where is says that we're called to live a "happy" life. AND, doesn't forgiveness come when you ask for it? Mom has apologized to me, but it was an apology for getting caught. I grew up with my Mom ALWAYS telling me, "Your sin will find you out." And yes, it always did and it always will. I believe that Mom's sin found her out...God had me find things for a reason, and it's those reasons that Mom and I aren't talking.
Anyways, I don't know what my Mom is saying to people, she's probably still telling people that she moved to California because her "laywer told her so," when in fact, she moved there for other, selfish reasons. And she's probably still saying that she "didn't abandon her kids" when in fact, she kicked me out of my own house, and had Tanner move in with a friend, so she can move to California to do what she wanted to do. And then she's probably saying that Tanner is the only one who loves her and forgives her, because he's the only one talking to her right now, when in fact, we ALL love her, but are worried about her. Tanner doens't know the whole truth...and I really don't understand why my Dad hasn't chosen to tell him, but that's none of my business.
I'm not trying to make my Mom look like a horrible person, because she's not in any way, I love her SO much, she just made horrible decisions. She fell into the lies that Satan laid out for her and is still walking in her own ways. At first I was really hesitant to put my blog up for people to read because I didn't want people to know, I wanted to protect my Mom and my family, but I thought about it, and I'm not afraid to let people know what my Mom chose to do, I want people to know the truth so that they can be praying for my Mom, emailing her and encouraging her to do the right thing. Yes, my parents will never be together again (and that sucks really bad), and yes, my Mom and I's relationship will never be the same again (and that sucks really bad too), but Jesus wants to be with her and live each day with her. Please just pray that the darkness flees and the blinds over my Mom's eyes are taken off.
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